27 November 2006

let go...

Boy is it a tough thing when you are faced with this request… what does one do? It is more than a *tell me how you feel, tell me what are you thinking* kind of request—it has nothing to do with the nonchalant *would you mind passing me the butter*. Not to me. When I am asked this, when someone asks me to

…let go: it is asking me to bare everything of what makes me me, for all to see, whether good, bad, beautiful or ugly in the most vulnerable way

and it frightens me. Especially when I have made such strides, secondary to my own decision making and it seems to not quite be enough, coupled with the fact that I have never *let go*. Ever. And even more so when it seems that the very person who wants you to let go is seemingly not letting go themselves. Or are they, and the issue is that we cannot see/smell/feel
or understand it?

Hence the essence of communication—without it, and let’s be honest now, we are so fucked. And we swore to never play games again. It goes back to yesterday’s chat and how some people are brave enough to ask because they care—it takes that measure, that fortitude, to keep relationships moving—that investment needs to be done every. single. day. period.

Similar to calling each other on our shit—yes, that too (remember that chat?!). And as I am feeling this conversation , I realize that I need to ask the same thing of others who want me at the same level—whether it be how we feel, what degree we have let go—whatever. Guess it is part of the responsibility of being beautiful people—edging each other onwards throughout our development, on the journey to that higher place of self, one that is resolute and amazing when shared with another.

On the flip—what if we are not challenged to let go? Are we then complacent to stay in our comfort zone, never to really grow? Or are we staying there, in our safe place, because we feel that the very one who asks us to let go is perceivably not ascribing to their prescription? Or is it that they truly are letting go, in their own way, yet we have not become appreciative of it?

Whatever it is, the bottom line is we. must. communicate. Talk. Act. Breathe. Assign meaning to the words. Share. Love. And if the person runs for the hills because they do not/care not/cannot reciprocate, then it is what it is. Remember though, that not every knows how, yet the degree of separation is that they are willing. And that is what matters most. Anything can happen from there.

As for me, I am letting go. And I will ask as well for I need to be appreciative… that is the trick for developing, moving forward with a solid foundation—embracing the nakedness of vulnerability with another—no matter who *we* and the *other* are. That challenge I am willing, and actually am, partaking in and it is worth it. Every single step.

question: when are you naked?

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