the leap...

Yes, we all know that I have been through a lot—love, heartbreak, self introspection, the whole nine yards.

There are many things in development right now in my life, and the choices I have in front of me are for me.

I wanted to let someone know of how things are transpiring, and at first I was thinking maybe this is not such a good idea (see? Brain wired to be negative!). Yet this person still has meaning for me, I am still exploring why even after all that we have been through and the time that has passed, yet I knew that I had to do something, so I picked up the phone. No, Jenny was not at the wheel, just good ol’ grown up Jen. I took action and made

…the leap: by making the call and letting this person know that I miss them

as the conversation drew to a close.

I did not do it as a test—I did not do it to see if there was reciprocity, denial, rejection. I meant it, I mean it!

It feels wonderful to be secure and safe in my own being to do this, without expectations or fears. My line has always been *anticipate everything and expect nothing*.

On the flip—what if we do not take that leap and express ourselves? And if we do decide to do so, how do we know if it is a healthy impulse, or the need to have acknowledgement at all costs?

Checking in to our little one who wants to drive, taking an inventory quickly of the motivation will help. Yet we need to be at the point of knowing who we are, what motivates us, scares us, what soothes us from both the little one and our grown up selves to be sure it is the grown up who is in touch with the feelings that makes the decision.

Plus, it may move another to make a difference too, for our contribution could be the very motivation they need.

No regrets!!! No agenda, nada. It is truly how I feel. This person still moves me…

question: when do you leap?