clean house...

Spring is within us now and the summer months ahead, hence time for a little spring cleaning, eh? As I have been hibernating over the past couple of weeks, watching things grow (both in the garden, soul and surroundings), I have made sure that I have been focusing on the soul, taking care to

…clean house: by removing the old and making room for the new.

When taking a look in all spiritual matters, it is important to do so or there will not be any room for new experiences or new people in our lives. Had I done this any earlier the timing would have been off kilter. What is developing in my life now could have been stunted by a too early scheduled cleaning process.

I threw out photos. Processed more feelings and took a real hard look at what transpired a few months ago—cold truth. Not from a place of judgement, yet what is not for me as a woman. Trashed old notes, e mails, phone numbers, and the promises made that went not only unfulfilled yet also totally violated. Threw out train tickets, flight stubs and notes. You name it.

Why now? Because in trusting the process I am ready now. I have this inkling deep inside that had I done so any earlier, I could have messed up what is in process now. I am slowly learning that things cannot be forced and to let go of control. Completely.

On the flip—what if the spring cleaning of the soul is not tended to? What if logic seduces us into thinking that now is the time to do so, when it is truly not?

I am learning to listen to my instincts, yet be sure that they are not coming from an insecure place that needs reassurance. I trust my gut, it is usually spot on. I try to be sure that I am not *talking* myself out of things by deluding myself with logic, yet at the same time balancing it with the emotions and feelings within, letting them be the drivers without taking the wheel. I am so thankful for doing so, especially now with letting go of control and getting the balancing act in order to a degree, for I would be missing out on something so beautiful now, unfolding slowly at its kind pace—for me not to know why right now, only to learn and enjoy at this moment with a significance to be revealed when the time is right.

question: what is(are) your chemical(s)?